This blog is about me changing my life, one step at a time, while staying sane. . . mostly. I will talk about my life, things I love and hate, adventures, the good, the bad and the ugly, and much more!
Due to my grandmother's health I have been behind on everything! Blogging, writing, and working out. I have just been living day to day trying to be there for her and help my grandparents out as much as I can. Since things have slowed down I am gonna try and get back to a routine of working out and bothering y'all with fun stories, failed tasks, and an overall array of gibberish. :)
I'm so glad you asked because I looked it up to find out exactly what this annoying like monster within some of us is! My go to place is Wikipedia, though when I was in school teachers said due to the site not being 100% factual you could not use it for research. It is still my go to place with loads of information.
It states "Insomnia is a sleep disorder in which there is an inability to fall asleep or stay asleep as long as desired."
Now defined like that anyone can say they have insomnia several times throughout their life. Heck, going to school I'd like to classify myself as an insomniac because I wanted to sleep through the bus picking me up every day. But that doesn't count. Darn.
Now there are three kinds of Insomnia with different causes: (again, as defined by Wikipedia)
Transient insomnia lasts for less than a week. It can be caused by another disorder, by changes in the sleep environment, by the timing of sleep, severe depression, or by stress. Its consequences – sleepiness and impaired psychomotor performance – are similar to those of sleep deprivation.[link]
Acute insomnia is the inability to consistently sleep well for a period of less than a month. Insomnia is present when there is difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep or when the sleep that is obtained is non-refreshing or of poor quality. These problems occur despite adequate opportunity and circumstances for sleep and they must result in problems with daytime function.[link] Acute insomnia is also known as short term insomnia or stress related insomnia.
Chronic insomnia lasts for longer than a month. It can be caused by another disorder, or it can be a primary disorder. People with high levels of stress hormones or shifts in the levels of cytokines are more likely than others to have chronic insomnia.[link] Its effects can vary according to its causes. They might include muscular fatigue, hallucinations, and/or mental fatigue. Chronic insomnia can cause double vision.
Wow! That's crazy. I didn't think there was so much behind this word I've been throwing around for over a week. If I were to try a diagnose myself (which is something a lot of us do. . . But should avoid WEDMD just because that will make you so paranoid and think you had the pledge when you have a rash. Crazy sight. Avoid.) i would say I could have Acute Insomnia. I don't have a lot of stress, but I have been mentally active and struggling to fall asleep until between one and three in the morning. It's not fun. and when I do wake I feel physically tired and easily agitated.
Now, skipping to the part everyone who is suffering wants to know, how can we get better?
This, in my opinion, comes down to what kind of insomnia you are. If you are suffering insomnia due to medications or from another disorder you will need to consult a doctor. We just want to be on the safe side. Remember, I am no where near a real doctor or anyone in a medical position (I use Wikipedia for Pete's sake).
Going back to struggling to go to sleep at night I have figured a large number of things someone could do to try and relieve the stress that could be clouding their mind when they lay down.
An hour before bed try this:
after the family is resting and in bed take some much needed you time and relax. Set thirty minutes to an hour of just relaxing. You could listen to music, read a book, drink a glass of wine, take a nice hot bubble bath, talk to your pets and ask them about your day, or mediate/yoga. The goal is to wind yourself down and focus, or not focus, on something else. You have been going all day, it's time to calm down. Forget about a butt at work that's been nagging you all day, or an assignment at school you are freaking out about, or the fact that your In-Laws are coming over tomorrow. Set it to the side. There is no point making plans, stressing out, or wondering about the future that you can't change in the next hour. Time to rest.
I am notorious about stressing out about things I can't do anything about and it's not doing me any good. (But I will probably keep doing it)
For the next couple of weeks make some much needed YOU time before bed and try and relax. set a goal. Do Yoga one night, read the next, and so on and so forth. Just make sure to bathe more then two times a week and maybe not drink the whole bottle of wine. That would be great. :)
With all of that being said I am making a secondary goal. To everyone that may know I am trying to do Yoga everyday, I it's going okay. I could do better. So I am going to set my Yoga time for at night before bed to help me relax. At least for the next two weeks I am going to try this and see if that helps me out. If I skip Yoga I will do one of the other things I have suggested to relax. I don't like relying on sleeping aids, and I have found myself reaching for them to help me at this point and that's not what I want, so. . . the fight against Insomnia is on!
Continue following along to hear how I am changing my life, one goal at a time, as well as a whole world of random things filling my mind.
Okay, so i have been a very bad person. I skipped a couple of days! I know. . . I need to start my sister a little piggy bank because she has earned 75 Cents. :( I can't be perfect. Not to mention when you have people over (like my sister) you kind of use that as a great excuse not to do YOGA. And I did.
I thought it was a great excuse, but apparently it wasn't. Oh well, it happens. It's like breaking your diet once every so often. You just have to work twice as hard on the other days if you do that. Right? Anyone on my side?
Anyway, so after she left I just picked up right where I left off, with a little resistance. I mean, I hadn't done it for three days so getting up and shoving myself back into a the little routine I had been trying to establish was a pain in the butt.
Note to shelf and everyone out there: If you are going to cheat make sure you have already established a good routine so that it is just as easy to jump back in to.
Oh my Gosh, I’m in shock. Kind of beaming with pride for
doing Yoga longer than a week, but at the same time it is an uphill battle.
Each day I have to continue to push myself to do it. To get dressed, put in the
DVD and start it up. It’s hard. But once I am sitting on that mat starting my
breathing I’m in the zone. Not to mention Shawn, my husband, rewards me with
affection. Okay, I get affection either way, but it is nice.
So do that. Do your Yoga and then treat yourself. Give
yourself a little reward every now and then. Ten extra minutes to be lazy
watching TV or a scoop of ice cream. I know it’s bad for you. But I didn’t say
anything about starting my diet portion yet, so eat away!! Right now I’m just
trying to train myself to do Yoga once a day. So spoiling myself is nice for
the time being.
Oh! Here are a couple of poses, what they are, and how they
help. And you haven't noticed Yoga has a lot of weird words. Well, I will break is down a little when I talk about the poses.
Asana = Pose or posture. This word is always at the end of each kind of stretch you do so get used to it now.
My favorite pose is the Cat Cow Pose
Cat (Marjari) Pose (Asana)
Cat pose = Marjariasana
Cow (Bitil) Pose (Asana)
Cow Pose = Bitilasana
Inhale during Cow pose and exhale during Cat pose.
What this does is it:
flexes out the spine
strengths the wrists and shoulders
helps with blood circulation
Great blogs to follow for more information:
http://yogabycandace.com/yoga-poses/ (But go at your own pass. this person is a Pro.)
So, my sister and I have this bet going. She says, for every
day I don’t do Yoga I owe her 25 Cents. That might not sound like a lot, but it
1 day missed – 25 cents
4 days missed – 1.00 dollar
10 days missed – 2.50
20 days missed! – 5.00
100 days missed is 25.00 Dollars!
By a year, 365 days, I will have lost 91.25!
Yep, gotta love Family support. Now I do get exempt days.
Like if I am medically unfit, or something crazy has happened like a family
emergency or holidays even, depending what I am doing. My sister isn’t that
cold and heartless, she’d let me have a couple of days. . . Though I should
probably double check and make sure in our verbal agreement I am correct about
Note to Self, find out fine print.
Again, gotta love family. Best kind of love and support you
But thankfully I am kicking butt and doing great. I haven’t
fallen over and I am starting to feel more flexible. Not saying I can lock my
ankles behind my head but my calves and legs feel as though there isn’t as much
tension as there used to be or that I am able to move my body into positions
with more ease. My breathing is still pretty bad, but I must remind myself this
isn’t going to happen overnight.
I have already fallen prey to laziness slept past when I was
supposed to get my yoga done. So the first thing I wanted to do was promise to
put it off to the next day. Go my husband for pushing me to get it done anyway.
I just moved my time back for everything. Little bit of coffee and a little
cereal and then Yoga. Yeah, it was close to eleven, but at least I got it done.
You can do this! I picture Chibis in the background cheering
me on. It’s fun imagery.
Well, don’t worry, you didn’t skip one. I just didn’t write
I figured you don’t need to know what I do every day. Changes should be spaced,
not a new one every day. Soon I will run out of things to talk about. Then
what? I will start to ramble on about nonsensical things like whether its human
nature for a guy not to throw his clothes on the floor when he is feet away
from the hamper or whether if I leave my hair frizzy as I go into town how many
horrified looks I will get. . . yeah. You see my point?
Anyway, day three!
I have been using Element, YOGA for Beginners. I recommend this DVD for anyone that is just getting started. I looked up some of the advance poses and trust me, she's being kind and keeping it relaxing compared to some poses out there. Though I haven't experienced all of her works I do know this is easy enough for me to do.
Even though it’s an hour long it doesn’t feel like it. Time
doesn’t just fly by, it’s kind of irrelevant as you are focusing on your
breathing, while trying not to stare at the TV to figure out what you are
doing. Yeah, anyone who has done Yoga knows exactly what I mean. She had me
turn to face away and I was trying to look over my shoulder to figure out what
I was doing. . . . Maybe that is why I lose my balance a bit? But that’s
neither here nor there.
She helps you focus on your breathing and trying to relax. So
when you do this go into a quiet room and have some you time or bring a buddy.
I do this in my bedroom and lock the door so as to tell people. “YOU SHALL NOT
PASS!” I might actually make a sign to clue in my husband, but he is starting
to understand that nine is my time and my time alone. I know, it’s only been
three days. I still very happy with myself.
Continue following my posts to read up on the different poses
and the language behind Yoga. Find out what are my favorite and least favorite
This may be called day one but it really is day two going
back to talk about my day one. That makes sense, right? J Well, you know what I
So far it’s easy going. I don’t want to go too fast or hard,
not that I am lazy, but I need to move slow to adjust to a new routine. Let’s
not just up and change your life overnight. No. That ain’t happening. I still
want to text my friends and family, call people, play games, be on social
medias, read, WRITE, and manage the home. . . Okay, most of these things
probably could be managed a bit better and shortened time wise and honestly, by
the sounds of my life, it does feel like I could use more movement. So this is
what I decided. YOGA!
No, laughing. I’m serious. Yoga. I know some people might say start with
adjusting your diet but I can’t do it. I don’t even eat like a regular person
so managing my meals is too daunting of a task. I don’t feel in control of it.
So I figure the easiest thing I can do is add an hour of Yoga into my mourning
The great thing about Yoga, that I have heard and read, is
that it helps to reduce stress, helps with sleep, regulates breathing, helps
you to become healthier, and I also read it was good for your sex life. No
joke. So if you’re in a slump sexually and are overall stressed, this should do
the trick. Wink. Wink.
So now my schedule looks like this: wake up before eight,
have coffee and a small snack and then by nine I am ready to do yoga. Granted,
I look kind of funny doing yoga and trying not to fall over, but oddly enough
it is soothingly and kind of energizing.
I will let you know more about how I am doing in Yoga next
A Change for the better, I think I will turn that into a Hashtag. That's the new thing now, right? Everything's a Hashtag. #ACFTB . . . I don't know how I feel about that... I"ll come up with somethings. Maybe I need to change the title. What do y'all think?
Anyway, I have gone years with back pain. And I don't mean I pulled a muscle or it’s a little uncomfortable pain now and again. What I mean is that there is constant tension on my lower Lumbar support which makes certain tasks, such as bending, turning, sometimes even walking, difficult. Not just difficult, downright painful.
My doctor gave me an anti-inflammatory med to assist me in functioning, but it isn't a cure. I also take pain killers when it's flared to the point of pinching a nerve causing a whole new set of issues, the worst being a restraint on my breathing. It's scary!
Now, some people have asked me “Have you thought about surgery?”
Yes I have thought about it, but no I won't do it. I don't think I am at a point where surgery is my only option. I think I am still capable of changing my life, but not entirely on my own. It will take struggles, time, and yes, pain pills on occasion, but I think I can do it. I don't want to risk my future with an unnecessary surgery or owe lots of money to the hospital for the next several years.
I need to change my life. And I don't mean I am gonna move across the world, become a priestess, become a vegetarian tonight!, or decide that rituals are the way to go. If that's your path, cool. But I plan to take it a bit slower and change my day to day routines.
I can manage not only my health, my money, and my time, but my LIFE for the better. Each Week I will post about my struggles, my failures, my successes, and my overall day to day happenings about how I am trying to change my life while giving suggestions I have discovered along the way. I am not a professional, so I can’t promise that what I do will work for you, nor, do I promise I will be doing this a year from now, but maybe with this blog, and the support from you and my family, it will push me into continuing this. Everyone needs a cheering squad.
So here we go. A brand knew start to a brand new way of life. :) I can do this!
I have not used this blog in a long time. And when I mean long time I mean the last post I did was back in October 2012! WOW!
But it’s time for a rebirth. Yes, you heard me. IT’S ALIVE!
I am going to take my old blog and start it back up. This time with much more gusto. I like that word, gusto. Makes me wanna smile with sass. Am I the only one? Well, regardless, I am back with a new found passion that will knock your socks off! Unless you aren’t wearing socks then I advise you to get socks so they can be knocked off. Everyone needs the experience once in their life. I will wait.
Do you have socks?
BAM! Socks are knocked off! Heck yeah!!
:) As I was saying, My Rambles Blog is back up and running with new content posted daily and much to come. There has been a lot of changes in my life and plenty of things that I have seen I can’t wait to share. Some of which might be censored. I didn’t say this would be a kid friendly Blog, did I? Well, for the most part it will be safe, if at any point I think something is said within my Blog that isn’t appropriate I will have a warning at the very top. No worries.
But for the most part this will be family friendly. Mostly.